For the Followers
First off: New blog design! I was absolutely hating the last one, which tends to happen consistently about 5 minutes after I complete a design. We will see how long this new one lasts!
The absence of photos lately is due to the lack of colour outside. I just cannot get excited about mud and branches, I’m not a bird. However, while out walking Jack the other day I noticed that the trees are finally in bloom! Could it be? Has spring finally arrived?
We walked Jack past the park, down a ravine and ended up on an old mountain-biking trail. It was really beautiful, this funny area sunk down in the earth with the city rising up around it.
I believe that we have placed Jack in his natural environment.
I wouldn’t ever purposefully neglect the internet, but I have been pretty distracted lately. Mike and I have brought in a new member for our dysfunctional little family:
I received such a beautiful rush of responses from my friends about my Secret Squirrel post. Every so often I need to be reminded that we all feel unlike ourselves sometimes. Thanksgiving being this past weekend I certainly counted my amazing friends among my many blessings!
Thanksgiving also awarded a chance to take some fun photos. Fall is my favourite season; it’s the only time of year where you can see fireworks in the daylight.
Besides letting my parent’s dog go feral up in the woods, we also checked out a craft show going on at the Old Mill. You know you really are from a small town when you literally have an Old Mill.
I put my National Geographic hat on in order to get this shot. If you only see one pissed-off eagle today, let it be this one.
I hope that everyone had a great long weekend! Now that it is almost Halloween I have swapped out turkey sandwiches for horror movies, and I can’t wait to show off my costume.
I am not sure what to do with this blog. I suppose I created it so that people would see it, but I am not certain what I really expect to get out of it. I feel strange and narcissistic when I post updates on Facebook and the light, touting my new blog posts- but I make myself do it because I feel if you’re going to chronicle yourself on the internet, you are meant to inform your friends about it. Really, I originally started this so that I could encourage myself to be more creative by having a hub to post my photos and drawings.
This post is a good deal more personal than what I usually put up- usually I don’t write at all! But I have been a bit down and introspective lately so I’m going to vent a bit.
I think it may be coming down from the excitement of moving and starting a new job. I frequently bounce in between craving change, shaking things up and just wanting to stay at home watching movies that I’ve already seen several times. At the moment I am in between both of these feelings. Moving to Toronto was such a big deal for such a long time, now that it has finally happened and I am settled I am not really sure what to do with myself.
For example: back in Ottawa I used to bike to work every day and now my new office is too far away to do that, so I am getting significantly less exercise than I used to. During the week I go out a lot with friends, so I am feeling guilty about spending money and eating junk, and I come down from my busy weeks by shutting myself off in my apartment for the weekend- eating more junk and watching horror movies.
So what I guess is happening is I’m in a bit of a rut at the moment; I don’t feel like me. I know I should be taking better care of myself but I just can’t seem to get up the initiative to do it, then I get these intense feelings of guilt because I am so lucky and fortunate in my life that I really don’t have the right to feel down on myself.
I think I am going to start going to yoga next week, which will hopefully get me back into the swing of regular exercise- and I am hoping now that the excitement of seeing all my old friends in the city is over, I can now go out visiting with more moderation. I got out some anxiety this morning by setting up my camera on a rickity pile of thick books (one of these days I’ll invest in a tripod) and jumping on the bed for a bit. Sometimes regressing back to the more carefree person I was when I was a kid is just what the doctor ordered!
So excuse this silly post. It may end up being an interesting development in my life, using my blog as an outlet for my frustrations. Oftentimes my photos and drawings do represent what I am feeling at a given time, but trying to be more literal about what I am thinking by writing down those thoughts is a bit of a weight off my shoulders as well. This was a bit tricky to articulate, I am definitely not a writer!
I hope everyone is having a lovely weekend – xo
A grumpy old lady at heart, I have been hugely enjoying visiting the antiques on Sunday at the St. Lawrence Market. We have to fight off the church crowd for a look at the best blitz and baubles, but treasure hunting is a wily game; only the strong survive.
My buddy Matt and I wrapped up an excellent day with a patio and beers. This picture was taken just a few minutes before a torrential downpour kicked in! We were walking back to the subway and tried to take refuge in a doorway, but a homeless lady was already there and told us off for standing on her cardboard. So much for that!
Happy scavenging, my little vultures.
The best summer days are spent doing absolutely nothing at all.
A Volkswagen modded for hunting dinosaurs:
The loneliest pie in the world:
And Satchel the dog found a new friend:
I can’t believe we’re already working our way through August. Summer days are so long, but still go by so fast! I am going to try and make the most out of what’s left. Nothing but friends, frivolity and good times ahead.